I wished you still loved me too

I guess there comes a point in every relationship where you just: NEED SOME TIME TO THINK"
but i guess i was naive enough to think we would never need that time
I thought we were perfect together
But maybe that's not what you saw

Your leaving crushed me down to the center of the earth the ache from my heart weighing so heavy I can't feel to move
But to acquiesce me of cheating to ask me why i can't date?
I am dating ..... Well I was dating you or so I thought for almost 6 months of my life
Cheating... how could that even be a consideration when I could hardly tell that there were other people on this planet besides you.. That would change anything anyways because your always more important

Wasn't it just the other day you were worried about rumors saying no one ever cared that we were dating before now they just want us to break up! And when i said no it's fine it doesn't matter.... And you said it did.. I reassured you saying that We wouldn't ever break up anyways... And you looked and me and said NO WE Won't...... Did this mean nothing

So you say we need a break .... well what does that do for my heart which you took into your hands and stabbed and ripped to pieces today. The only person in my eyes who I would fight hell and back again needs to think about everything.... Does this include if you still love me?

I understand the circumstances to an extent, and believe you because i do not wish to blame you
I know that in loss it is necessary to grieve, but this pain is not something i prepared myself for seeing as I always thought you would be the face look back at mine when i needed you most.

I didn't do anything wrong and I guess that's why more than anything this is consuming me
It's not like iI cheated on you
And i didn't miss treat you did I ...unless cherishing you is bad
I didn't call you names
And I have LOVED you and Still LOVE you immensely
Please clear up for me what your thinking about... and what it is you need to figure out
This is cruel in everything you've done and by deleting me from your accounts
your proving this is all on you
I love you more than anything
I just wished you still loved me too.